The Living Geek.

2011-05-25T21:57:00.001+08:00

I've given up on life. I'm quitting. Goodbye.

2011-05-24T20:53:00.003+08:00

I just wanna cry. I'm so stupid. I don't wanna live anymore. I need you but you don't need me. I'm so stupid. I shouldn't have let you go. I don't find a reason or meaning to live anymore. I don't want anything. I want you. I need you. You're the reason why I wanna be successful. But now, there's no reason for me to achieve anything in life. I rather end my life. I just don't wanna live anymore. I can't take it. I can't. I hate myself. I need you. I'm in a mess. I need your love. But.. You don't care about me anymore..

Life. Is. Meaningless.

2011-05-23T00:13:00.003+08:00

I want you to know that I'm not going to love nobody else. But the way you're acting is like as though you have really moved on. I'm blogging from my phone and I'm gonna let out what I'm feeling right now.

Remember how we used to tell each other that we love each other more? I read all the texts that we had back then. Yes, I kept them. And it really made me cry. You said that I didn't keep my promises. Yes, I didn't and I really regret that a lot. But I'm ready to fulfill those promises back again. You told me this, you love me more, you'll never stop loving me even after you've moved on. You said you'll love me forever. You said you wanna die next to me. You said you wanna marry, have my children. I know I changed all that. But do you still love me? Do you still wanna die next to me? Do you still wanna marry me? Do you still wanna have my children? I hope you still do.. Because I intend to marry you. I intend to be with you. I intend to make up for all the mistakes I've done by providing you a happy life. I wanna be your husband. All the success that I may have mean nothing to me of I don't have you. You are all that I need in my life. I swear. I know I pushed you away. I know I said I'm not good enough for you. I know what I said. But I'm here, ready to fight again to get back your love, to be with you, to prove to you that I can be what you want me to be, to be what you need me to be. But first, I need you in my life again. I need you to be with me. I need you.

Remember when you were being suicidal? Well, right now, I'm the one being suicidal. Honestly, I can't take it anymore living my life without you. Everyday, I think of dying. Thinking about you hurts so much knowing that you're not with me. Knowing that there'll be a possibility that we can never be together. I feel that I'd be better off dead than suffer this loneliness. You are who that makes me lively. Without you, it's just nothing, empty. I almost slit my wrist the other day. I couldn't take it anymore but I just couldn't do it. Nobody knows about this, not even the closest people around me. I looked all happy and alright, but deep inside, I'm suffering my own pain I've caused. Sometimes, I feel that getting banged by a car isn't that bad either. But when I think about it, when I'm dead, I won't be able to be with you. That's what keep me going each day, to be with you again. Though I can't take this suffering and pain, I believe that one day, we'll be back together again. I think I can go blind from crying myself to sleep every night. Maybe that explains my worsen vision. But that's all I can do because it seems like you don't care about us anymore. Every night, I cried thinking about what I had caused, wishing I could turn back time. I really miss you. I really need you. I love you..

Today, it was great to be able to spend time with you again. But it doesn't seem to be anything special to you.. Everytime I looked at you, I wanna cry, looking at the person I love so much, the person whom I die for, the person who means the whole world to me, the person who I only know to love.. Because you are not mine. I can't believe I can be so stupid..

I'm so lost without you.. I really need you.. I love you, Aishah. I have never loved another person except you, never. I hope you know that I am loyal to you. I love you Aishah. I'm sorry..

2011-05-18T23:35:00.002+08:00

I wonder if you feel the same way of what I feel. I wonder if you miss me the same way as I miss you. I wonder if you still love me the same or have you 'used to love' me. I wonder if everything I tweet about you, you know that it is for you. I wonder if you did know that it is about you, do you really care. I wonder who am I to you now. I wonder if you'll treat me differently me now. I wonder if you know that I only love you. I wonder if you know that I have never not loved you. I wonder if you know that I keep thinking about you everyday. I wonder if you do too. I wonder if I can talk to you like before. I wonder if you're referring to me in your tweets. I wonder a lot of things. A lot of things has been going through my mind every night. I wonder if you know that I can't sleep without thinking about us. I wonder if you know how much I regretted letting you go. I wonder if you know how badly I need you in my life back. I wonder if you know what you meant to me. And I wonder, I wonder if you'll ever accept me in your life back...

Myzan loves you, Aishah.

2011-05-11T00:43:00.002+08:00

So, a few minutes ago ended what could have been our 33rd month together.. Yes, I'm damn sad that we were unable to celebrate what could have been another special day for us.. I hope you'll do well for the test that you did just now. I'm still missing you, thinking about you, like I always do.

I'm still hoping that you'll be mine again some day.. I know you might be thinking that I've not done anything to show that I really want you back. I just don't want to disturb you. I know it's a stupid reason but.. Ya, I really don't want to disturb you.. And I really hope those baobei2 tweets really meant nothing because if it does, I'll just regret more..

I miss you Noraishah Binte Omar Alkhatib, I really miss you a lot..

2011-05-08T21:36:00.003+08:00

I hope that my grace period is long enough to keep you away from here..

So, it's a Sunday today and it's Mothers' Day and it's 8 May.. 2 days from today, it could have been our 33rd month together.. So the past 2 days I've gone to town to play LAN with the people. But there's not the thing. Every single time I went back home from town, I will take 65 home. And every time, it just reminds me of the time I always fetched you from work at Vivo.. Every single day, if I could fetched you, I would fetched you from work straight after school. Damn, I miss those moments.. Though I was very tired from school, meeting you has always been the reason to why I'm always happy. That is why I have never complaint on being tired to fetch you although you always say not to fetch you if I'm tired. It was the only time I could see you everyday and I don't want to miss that chance. And every time, it'll be a long ride home and I really enjoyed your presence every time. Although we don't talk often during the bus rides, your presence was all I need to be happy. I really miss having you..

As each day passes, I see more and more of your tweets, I feel more and more insecure. I know I'm not yours but I just feel insecure, I don't know why. Maybe because I love you too much that's why.. Every time you tweet baobei, I feel very insecure, jealousy start to strikes, I feel sad, angry with myself.. You could have still be mine, I know it, we both know it.. But.. I just had to change at the most decisive moment of my life..

I miss you, Aishah.. I really do.. I want to tell you but I doubt you'll bother.. I want you back in my life.. No, I NEED YOU BACK IN MY LIFE. Honestly, my life is going from bad to worse without you.. I really need you. Everyday, I'll look at our pictures together and just cry myself to sleep.. I really miss US. You are the my FIRST TRUE LOVE and I don't wanna let that go.. You are my only love. I was foolish to let you go.. It is the biggest mistake and regret of my life.. You are the first and only girl who I've kissed and I still believe there is a reason for that.. You are the first and only girl whom I have done so many things together with.. You are the first and only girl whom I've experienced so many things with.. You are the first and only girl, that really love me and you are the first and only girl that I really truly honestly sincerely love..

What I wanna say is, I want you back.. I need you back.. I really, really, really, really, really, really, really need you badly. I want you back. I want it all back. I want us back. I want Aishamyzan back. I want our love back. I want to be together with you again. I want to be the one who make you smile and happy again. I don't want others to make you happy. I want me to make you happy. Yes, I'm selfish.. Because I really love you.. I want to be YOUR Myzan again.. I want to be yours again.. I want to be with you.. My heart aches for you.. I ache for you.. Everything about me aches for you to be back.. You are that missing piece in my life.. I swear, I'll treat you right. I swear I'll love you right. I swear you get what you deserved. I swear I'll be there for you. I swear I'll keep what I swear to you. I can't wait any longer. I need you back now.. I now know how it feels to be dying as each day passes by.. I'm dying on the inside. I need you.. I'm crying my heart out for you.

I LOVE YOU NORAISHAH BINTE OMAR ALKHATIB, I LOVE YOU.

2011-05-01T14:11:00.002+08:00

I wonder if you received my messages last night..
I hope you did..

2011-05-01T00:27:00.002+08:00

Finally, I got some answers from you, something that allow me to know where I stand in your life now. Looks like I'm still in existence in your life.. You sent me a very long text message, I didn't expect you too because I thought you couldn't be bothered. But at least now I know how are you doing and feeling. By the looks of it, you're doing fine without me. But me on the other end, is suffering without you. Yes, I know I'm the one who let you go, I really do regret that. I should have fought for you like how I used to.. But, I wasn't myself that time. I don't know how to explain but I just wasn't myself. I didn't think.. I just said everything out of anger and I really don't meant most of the things that I said.. But it's too late for that now. Everything's been said and done. But I still don't understand why you keep thinking like as if I like her so much?? Why?? I have NO feelings for her. I'm just treating her as a friend. Maybe I was a bit too nice but nothing more than just friends. I know you're hurt by this but I still don't understand how. You said I don't understand how hurt you are by this. Maybe I do, maybe I don't.

Remember what happened last year? You broke up with me because you said you wanted to concentrate on your studies. But after that, I found out you having the time of your life with Hassan while I was all alone, missing you, suffering. Maybe, I do understand how hurt you are, maybe I don't. But I'm sure nothing could hurt more than knowing you actually make out with him. Fuck.. Why do I have to bring this up??? I still can't forget that.. But I still love you though, I still fight for your love.. And until now, I still love you.. I've made a mistake, yes, a very big mistake in letting you go, but can't you forgive me? I need you badly.. I know that time you were single and can do whatever you want, but right after we broke up? That is like betraying the love we had.. But I still forgive you because I love you so much.. But mine, the reason you claim for us breaking up, is nothing as big as that, it's just a crush she had on me.. Can't you forgive me on that? I had no intentions on hurting you.. Can't you give me another chance? Can't you?

To be honest, I don't understand why can't you trust me anymore? I know I changed but I'm definitely the old Myzan now, the Myzan you have always love, the Myzan whom loves you so much, the Myzan who needed you so much, the Myzan who would do anything for you, the Myzan, who you said, is your angel.. I assure you, this is me, this is YOUR Myzan, I'm back, needing you badly..

You said you don't want me back. I was really hurt by that, I almost cried in the bus when I read that but I hold my tears. But, I have no one to blame but myself.. I chose this path and have to bear with the consequences although I don't intend to take this path..

I just want another chance, I want you back, I need you back, I need my life back, I need my other half back, I need my love, I need my one true love, I need my Aishah.. Please give me a chance, I'll do anything to gain your trust and love back.. Yes, I'm desperate, I'm desperate for your love back, I'm desperate to have you by my side again, because I really need you in my life.. Aishah..

2011-04-25T23:48:00.002+08:00

I just fucking miss you.

I hope you're doing fine, I'm really worried about you after what I saw on twitter.

I wish there's something I could do.

2011-04-25T00:03:00.003+08:00

Today seems like a good day for me. Managed to chat with Aishah and tweet with her. :)

Was supposed to see her just now when I bought for her food. But then, Fadhil appeared when I was waiting for her so I just passed it to him. Was looking forward to seeing her but I guess it was not meant to be? Haish.. I wanna see that face of hers again that always makes me smile.

And oh, I almost got banged by two cars.. Thanks to my lapse in concentration. FML seriously..

I don't know how I'm gonna sleep tonight.. I'm still missing you.. The only thing on my mind is you and the only word that I mumble is your name.. Haish.. Good nite then..

2011-04-24T13:25:00.003+08:00

Currently sending Aishah her Birthday pictures through MSN. I realized that her DP has me in it.. I wanna ask but I shouldn't disturb her on small matters like this. Though I'm curious, I know she's busy with her school work. But somehow, it puts a smile on my face to see that. I don't know why, but I just smile. :)

And last night I had a 'nightmare'. I dreamt that I saw Aishah with her best friend, Iqbal. Ya.. I know that I feel that they he's the right guy for her but somehow I'm not ready for this.. I still love her.. Though I didn't see them do anything, just standing beside each other, I feel sad.. I still can't get over her.. And if my dream is a sign, I must be ready to take the hard truth when the day comes.. Which I hope won't happen..

2011-04-24T01:37:00.002+08:00

Another night, another night thinking about you.. I hate to be faking my happiness every time, because deep down, I'm sad.. But I tried not to show my sadness because I don't want other to worry.. Yeah, I may look like I'm happy, tweet like I'm happy, comment like I'm happy and all.. But I'm just faking it.. I'm sad, damn sad.. I'm sorry to the guys because I didn't play DOTA with u all.. I just can't bring myself to do anything that's fun when I'm all alone because I will only be thinking about her, about Aishah. It has always been about you in my life. I wish you could see that. Every single thing, it's always about you.. You are a part of my life, a permanent part of my life..

If I can have one wish, my only wish is for you to come back and never leave again..

2011-04-23T04:43:00.002+08:00

Currently, I couldn't sleep.. Keep looking at the photos of you and me.. I really miss you so much.. Remembering the memories we shared and the moments we had together really make me teared.. I can't stop thinking about you.. Even if I tried, it'll only be for a while.. I want us to be together again.. Argh.. I shouldn't have let you go.. I shouldn't have been so naive.. I shouldn't have been so immature.. I should have given you my time.. I shouldn't have prioritized my friends to you.. I shouldn't have been too nice to people..

I love you so much.. I can't get over you.. I love you, Aishah, I love you.. I need you.. I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE.. I can't go on like this every night, thinking about you, thinking about us.. I NEED MY LOVE, MY OTHER HALF, MY AISHAH.. DAMN IT!! I SHOULDN'T HAVE LET YOU GOOOO!! I SHOULDN'T HAVE!! I shouldn't have...

2011-04-23T02:24:00.003+08:00

Ok, she told me to take care of myself.. But she was bloody angry and pissed off.. I don't know why and neither does she.. For some reason, I don't actually care about myself, I only care about others around me.. But whatever it is, does this mean that she still cares about me? I don't wanna think too much about it.. Maybe she's just worried for the moment, that's all.. Ya..

2011-04-23T01:11:00.002+08:00

I guess you're really moving away from me.. But it's ok.. I just hope you're happy. I'm starting to regret everything already.. And I guess, I should start to move on too.. But I know I can't.. So I'll just live my life in regrets knowing I've lost the only person I love.. I can't stop crying.. I can't believe I've lost you..

2011-04-23T00:32:00.001+08:00

I'm sad, yes.. But I deserved it.. For all that I've done.. Although I personally feel it wasn't my fault, neither was it hers, I still deserved it.. Sometimes, it pays to be too nice..

2011-04-23T00:21:00.003+08:00

I know I shouldn't have replied to your tweet.. But at least now I know how you feel. I can tell that you don't wanna talk to me anymore. I can tell that you want don't me to be a part of you anymore.. When I saw your tweet that quote, 'I dont know what to say.. I dont want to say anything', all I could do was smile.. I expected you not to reply, and I was right, unfortunately.. I wished to meet you, but I guess it's impossible now.. Sometimes, I wonder how did you managed to get me to talk to you the last time you broke my heart.. It seems so easy for you.. But for me, it seems so hard.. I guess I'm not brave and strong enough..

2011-04-22T15:37:00.002+08:00

I miss your sarcasm and the way you always pinch me. They never failed to make me laugh and smile. :)

2011-04-22T15:08:00.002+08:00

I miss her. I wish I had the courage to message her. But I'm just too coward after what I had told her. I wanna meet her, but I'm too afraid. Afraid that she might not want to meet me. Afraid that she might have really moved on and forget about me. I told her to forget about me, forget about us, and forget the past. But I didn't really meant what I say. I just say it out of anger, and I really regretted it. I don't want her to forget about me, I don't want her to forget about us and I definitely don't want her to forget about the past.

I can't forget about her. Everyday, I think about her and every night, I still think about her. How can I forget someone who loves me deeply and truly? How can I forget someone who have only shown me nothing but love? How can I forget someone who have given me true love and nothing else? How can I forget someone who has always make me smile and happy always? How can I forget someone who has been my pillar of strength and determination to do anything? How can I forget someone who has supported me all this while? How can I forget someone who never forgets about me, who used to always messaged me first? How can I forget someone who cares a lot about me, who take cares of me when I'm sick or done something very stupid? How can I forget someone who has been very forgiving to every single mistakes that I made? How can I forget someone who I have spent the last 2 and a half years together? How can I forget someone who is very close to me? How can I forget someone who I have made a lot of memories and moments with? How can I forget someone who has made a big difference in my life? How can I forget someone who believed in me so much? How can I forget someone who can make me smile without doing anything? How can I forget someone who is my other half? How can I forget someone who I have planned a future with together, who I knew is my soul mate, who I want to be with forever, who I want to die for, who I want to die with, who I want to have a family with, who I know is very loyal to me, who I know so well? And lastly, how, can I, forget someone, who I truly love, from the bottom of my heart, only? How?

I just want you back. I need you, badly..

2011-04-21T00:07:00.002+08:00

Ok, so I'm back blogging. Not for any reason though, but just using this to express feelings as I do not want people to know. I understand that my blog is dead so it is the perfect place to express my feelings.

Ok, so me and Aishah broke up again, and I do not want to elaborate about it. To be honest, I really take blame for everything that has happened and I really regret what has happened. I know it's no use and she seems to have move on too, but I feel really stupid to let go of someone who truly loves me for who I am from the bottom of her heart. I know I can never find someone who will love me the way she does, but life has to move on, I guess. Though I still love her, I believe that she deserves better than me with the way I have been treating her. But I wanna be with her, contradicting much right?

I know I've done stupid stuffs, but haish.. I just wish I could turn back time and undo all those. Yes, people usually only realize how important that someone is in their life after they lose them, which is already too late. But if I were to be given another chance, I'll take that chance and love her right. I swear I do love her, from the start till now and forever from the bottom of my heart, only her.

Haish.. I really miss her.

2010-07-24T01:54:00.002+08:00

I can never tell you how much I love you since the day we are together,

Because everyday, I love you even more.

You can never understand my heart,

To why, I love you so much.

You may say that I showed you all my love,

But I say, I just treat you well.

But you should know that,

No matter what, I will only love you.

I love you, Aishah.

2010-07-18T21:51:00.003+08:00

I don't know what to say but I just feel like expressing myself out.

In a really fucked up mood.

Hmm..

I wonder what happened to "won't keep anything from you".

And..

Haish..

I don't wanna say anything more.

I will just add fuel to the fire.

2010-07-17T21:40:00.002+08:00

Helloooooooo..

My name is Myzan and it's been a while I've updated this blog of mine.

A lot of things have past and I am looking forward to the future.

YOG's coming up next month.

I'm still not ready yet.

I don't know when is the next training but I hope to be ready by then.

Fasting month is also nearing which is also next month.

Hmm..

I wonder how I'm going to cope with my fast while volunteering for YOG.

And the one I'm looking forward mostly, 2nd Anniversary with Aishah.

Hee.

I'm really proud of this relationship and that it could actually last this long.

And I believe that it can last forever.

I love you, Aishah.

Anyway, went out with Aishah just now.

Planned to collect her IC but then the ICA Building was already closed.

Wtf ah.

Then, we headed to Bugis to shop.

After Bugis, went to Tampines.

Ate at BBQ Chicken, again.

I swear the chickens are nice.

Hehe.

After that, went shopping again.

Bought Aishah a pair of Denim pants and a sandal from Cotton On.

Also bought for her a long sleeve shirt from Outfitter.

After that, I sent her home and went home.

Now, I'm missing her.

I hope she misses me too.

K then..

Boo Bye.

2010-06-19T23:53:00.005+08:00

Firstly..
Holland are through to the last 16!!
Woohoo!!
They beat Japan 1-0 just now and have qualified for the next round.

Anyway, just now I played in the Nike Cup competition at the newly-opened SCAPE, Orchard.
We managed to qualify for the next round.
I just know that the team that wins the competition is going to Brazil.
Haha.
That's something.

Yesterday I partial-ed from school.
After went out with Aishah.
She wanted to buy something at Tampines but it wasn't there.
Then we went to eat at BBQ Chicken.
Damn Razak, you're right about the chicken tasting nice.
But it wasn't as big as how you described it.
Haha.
But it is nice.

K then, I'm going to sleep now.
Tomorrow's Fathers' Day.
Happy Advanced Fathers' Day to every dad, including mine.
=)

World Cup Season

2010-06-14T22:30:00.003+08:00

Hell-oooo..
School has re-opened from a 2 weeks holiday.I swear I was restless today.
Didn't learn much actually today as nothing actually went inside my brain.
Amazingly, the faci said that my slides for today were very good.
Hah.
The irony.

Anyway, last week was my 1st holiday this semester.
Spent the previous week working.
Last Thursday was my 22nd Monthsary with Aishah.
Hee!
2 more months to go.
Whee!

Last Saturday went out with S&J to Marina Barrage.
As expected, it was hot.
I think I'm getting darker.

I'm having this terrible stomachache from morning.
I think it's because I went to drink Coke early in the morning before having any breakfast.
Have been shitting the whole day.
Haha.

And Holland beat Denmark 2-0 just now.
I knew they're gonna win by 2 goals.
Oranje for the World Cup!

Oranje!

2010-06-08T17:33:00.003+08:00

OK..
It's been a while.

Been busy with work.
Last Sunday was the last day of work.
Relieved..
Worked for World Of Sports during the John Little Mega Expo Sale at Singapore Expo Hall 4.
Razak worked with me as well.
Started on the 28th of May and ended on the 6th of June.
A lot of things happened at the Expo.
Made a lot of friends, a lot of theft cases and a scam too.
But overall, it was a great experience.
Had fun working with Razak and the other WOS people.

On the contrary, working means no time for Aishah.
Haish..
But I met her yesterday and it was great to finally meet her.
Met Wann too yesterday, coincidentally.

Anyway, World Cup will be in 3 days.
Whee!
Anyone wanna watch World Cup can come my house.
Hehe.
Holland for the win!
Oranje!

2010-05-23T00:12:00.003+08:00

Hello Wann, and Aishah.
Haha.
Since ko complain, this one is for you, Wann.
And for Aishah, jgn nk sebok2 eh.
Hahaha.

Ok, where shall I start?
Hmm..
Quite a lot of things happen since the last time I updated.

Ok, I went for Beats Encore audition for the second time and I didn't make it.
Because they only want to recruit pretty girls.
Haha.
Just joking.
But quite true kn Wann??
Haha.
I didn't went for the 2nd soccer trial because I knew I was going to get selected and I won't have my personal time anymore.
Especially for Aishah.
Haha.
Actually, it's just that it takes up a lot of my time.
The confirm get selected part is just for laughs.
Haha.

Ok, then comes the 21st Monthsary with Aishah.
Whee!
Did not go or do anything special.
Just spend time together playing Monopoly Deal card.
Hahaha.
Swear this game is addictive.
Have been playing it with my classmates almost everyday.
Haha.
Ok, back to the monthsary.
Bought Aishah a book that she wanted from Kinokuniya.
And oouh, we both wore red coincidentally that day.
Haha.
Sebok je org tu.
Ok, that's about all.

Then, there were UTs.
Microeconomics and PMS UT was fine.
But Business Law and SQPE was terribly hard, especially Business Law.
Killer UT.
Left with HTM after holidays.

Next Wednesday will be going to Vivocity for SQPE field trip.
Hope for some class fun and bonding.
Woohoo..

Anyway, next week is last week of the term.
Fast righttttttttttt??
I know.
Haha.
This is RP.
Last day of school will be on Thursday since Friday is Vesak Day.

Then, just got a call from my former employers at World Of Sports if I want to work during the holidays.
They needed 5 people.
So, I guess me, Mirul and Razak will be working.
Haha.
Will be first times for them.
Wonder how they cope.
Haha.

And tomorrow, I'll be going to conduct surveys at the Arts Museum as part of the Museum Day or something.
I volunteered for it as they will pay us.
Hee.
$35 for 4 hours is not bad money, I guess.
But who cares, I'm in need of cash.
So ya.
Haha.

And, and, Aishah's 'addicted' to the Nigahiga videos from Youtube now after I introduced him to her.
Nyahahaha.
No more SHANE DAWSON I guess.
Hahahaha.

K then.
Bye bye.

I hope you enjoy this long post Wann, and Aishah.
Hahahaha.

090510

2010-05-09T16:45:00.002+08:00

Happy Mother's Day Mum!
=)

&&

♥21♥ in just a few more hours.
Hee!
=)

2010-05-06T09:41:00.002+08:00

Woohoo!
It's Thursday!
Quick or what..
Haha.

Anyway, I'm in class right now.
Currently got nothing to do.
Hospitality & Tourism Management today.
I didn't know Venice is sinking.
Haha.

Yesterday, was a tiring day.
Had a field trip to CWP for mystery shopping, then Beats Encore audition and soccer trial.
The mystery shopping was seriously a waste of time and money.
I had an unpleasant experience at COURTS, the shop my team need to mystery shop in.
We need to evaluate their service and it totally sucks.
They don't even have a good product knowledge.
Pfft..

For Beats Encore audition, it was supposed to start at 5 but until 6, the audition was not started yet.
So, I will be going again today since I left halfway yesterday since I need to go for soccer trial at 6.45.

The soccer trial was another misery.
A lot of people turned up for the trial, close to 200 I guess.
It started with us running around the field for 3 rounds and then a drill.
The drill was that the right winger needs to dribble the ball past some cones and cross it into the penalty box.
I played as a right winger and I didn't even get to do the drill because halfway through it, the coach decided to play two side.
During the two side, those who stand up first gets to play first.
So, since I was like sitting at the back, I have to wait for the front people to go before my turn since they were already getting ready to stand up when the right winger position is needed.
And ya, I was like the last few to play and it only lasts maybe less than 10 minutes.
Really didn't have much time to impress or do anything.
I didn't get much of the ball.
Then they say that if we think that time was short for us to showcase our skills, then we can come on Friday.
I was like wtf ah.
They could have just told half of us to turn up yesterday and half on Friday.
Seriously, waste of time.
Don't know if I'm going tomorrow.
Could have just stayed for Beats Encore audition.

K then.
Gonna continue with class lesson.
Bye.

Not fair!

2010-05-02T22:56:00.015+08:00

"It's not fair, I think you're really mean. I think you're really mean.."
It's not fair that Primary School and Secondary School, ITE and I think JC students have a school holiday tomorrow because of Labour Day. "-_-

Aishah's soooo happy that she won't be going to school tomorrow.
Confirm tdo lmbt la tu dier nnt.

Anyway, yesterday we went to Dee's pit at Changi Beach.
Wasn't there long actually.
We met Aslinda in the bus otw there.
Huhu.
Reached there around 5plus and went off around 7 like that.
Didn't expect to see familiar faces there.
Fadli and Bob, my former COE mates were there.
Fadli is in RP also.
Then Zaff was also there, a former tuition mate.
Nyahaha.
Singapore is indeed small.
Took quite a lot of pictures of people there.
Haha.

After that, me and Aishah went to Tampines Mall to eat at LJS.
After that, shopped for a while.
Brought Aishah to the flower shop which is at Tampines1 since she wanted to go so much.
Then I brought her to my former workplace, World Of Sports.
Haha.
I was not forgotten by the people there.
Instead, I received quite a warm welcome.
Aishah was 'impressed' by the people there, I think, since she says she wanna work there.
Haha.

Somehow, I miss working there.
I really had a good working experience there.
Really enjoyed myself in retail business.
Their hospitality makes me wanna work there again.
Maybe I can request my internship there.
Hmm..

Then I sent her home and stayed for a while at her home to watch Susuk.
Then at this one moment of the show, I was surprised by the woman then I shouted.
Then her aunty laughed at me.
Haha.
And today, she told me that her aunty talked to her about it.
Haha.

I feel like I'm already part of her family.
Her younger brothers seems to treat me like their real brother and her aunty, which is her maid, likes me a lot, which Aishah told me.
Hee.
Only left with her father to impress.
Haha.
Kene tunggu dier 18 ah baru blh bebual ngn bpknye.
Haha.

K, today, had religious school in the morning.
After that, stayed at home for a while before gone to play soccer.
Seriously, I need to get back in shape before Wednesday's soccer trial.
I feel that I'm getting slower, my ball control is sucky, my stamina gone (it was never there actually. Haha.), my shooting, crossing, dribbling and passing are getting weaker.
I really need my fitness and technique back if I'm ever going to get past the first trial.
And I almost dislocated my ankle just now after my ankle was caught during a challenge.
But the one who came in with the challenge was hurt more.
I just had my boot off.
Haha.

After that, Aishah accompanied me to eat at Rasa Rasa Seafood.
Amazingly, today' s service was good.
Haha.
Usually, I will complain to Aishah about the bad service and she will laugh and tell me to stop complaining.
Haha.

I miss her so much.
Haish..
I hope I can meet her tomorrow although I know she needs to study.
Study hard k syg.
I believe that you can succeed.
I'll be right here supporting you.
Love you b.
Muacks!

K then, I guess I'll turn in now.
Bye bye.

2010-04-30T22:01:00.000+08:00

Hello!
Currently struggling with my RJ.
Today's RJ is on Work Breakdown Structure by using Text Indents.
Haiyayayaya..
It's part of Project Management & Scheduling.
Gaaaawd..
I've been doing it since, 8?

Anyway, another week of school had just passed.
Super quick.
Had another floor ball session yesterday.
I scored and assisted one yesterday in a match.
Hee.

Anyway, tomorrow will be the weekends.
Gonna go out with Aishah to Dee's pit at Changi tomorrow.
Miss her so much.
Haish..
Her prepaid's low and her Internet's down so I couldn't contact her in any way.
Have to rely on her aunty to lend her phone to message.
Can't wait to meet you tomorrow sayang.
=)

K, gonna continue with my RJ now.
I need help, seriously.
Bye.

Floorball, seriously??

2010-04-28T00:15:00.003+08:00

Went for floorball trial just now.
Was quite fun actually.
Quite a lot of people turned up for the trial and only a few knows how to play floorball.
Haha.
The floorball court was air-conditioned so it made breathing more difficult.
That's why they need to be very fit.
I could hardly survive for 2 minutes in the court.
Hahaha.
I almost scored a goal too, but it hit the post.
Kwang3.

After that, went to meet Aishah.
She was supposed to go tuition but she said she won't learn anything there.
So, went to Mac instead to complete her homework and eat.
Well, as expected, she didn't managed to finish her homework.
Because I was her distraction.
Haha.
After that, went to search for her long awaited Paddle Pop.
Hahahaha.
Someone said it cost $1 when it cost only $0.60.
Nyahahaha.
But then, couldn't find it so bought for her a red bean ice-cream stick instead.
Then sent her home and went home.

Later need to wear corporate attire to school.
Haish..
Gonna learn about Service Quality and Professional Etiquette.
The module that I got C for the 1st week.
Shit..
And just now's Business Law problem was difficult too.
Looks like Year 2 is nothing similar to Year 1.
Gotta buck up Myzan.
Aim for that 3.8 GPA.

K then, gonna sleep now.
Anyway, I love Aishah. =)
Bye.

2010-04-26T21:43:00.001+08:00

1st picture.
1st week.
After we got back together.
Hee..

Yove you ayot ayot.
Muacks!
=)

2010-04-26T09:13:00.002+08:00

Back in school people.
Haiyaa..
Microeconomics today.
-_-..
And I just got to know that I have 2 C's in my first week.
Sial..

Anyway, today marks 1 week me and Aishah are back together.
Whee!
Time flies so fast.

She's having her English Exams today.
Do your best k syg.
I Love You.
=)

K then, class started already.
Bye.

Specially typed for you.

2010-04-24T15:07:00.004+08:00

Kaninabecaucibai betol.

Eh, ko tu THINK TWICE sebelum ko ckp pape.
Ko igt ni tk?
"I guess you have guts to tell me face to face . I dont mind that . Just be like a man and talk to me . You jealous ? She's not urs anymore . Its her decision so be like a man and accept it . You kinda a innocent guy, so i dont wanna fight . I understand about your feelings toward her . Just respect her decision can ?"

Kirekn pe ni skg? Ko hypocrite ah?
Ko blang aku suro accept and respect her decision, so, aku blang ko balik, be like a man la sia.
I understand about your feelings towards her.
Accept and respect her decision, can?
K, goood.

And, dier break ko pnye heart?
Hahaha.
Sejak ble korg due together sak?
Ko mati2 kn blang aku yg korg have no relations but JUST FRIENDS.
Haha.
So, asl nk mengamok? Asl nk sarcastic? Asl nk rase sakit hati? Asl nk sedeh2?
Bknnye dier tipu ko kepe kn?
Dier pn da blang ko pe, tkmo high hopes.
Ah, terbang ah tinggi2, skg ko da jatuh, sakit kn?
Ah, jadi tkmo salakn org je ble ko pn sala.

And, tk betol ke yg dier ckp ko BS all the way?
Kalau aku jadi ko, aku THINK TWICE sebelum ckp pape.
Pikir balik ah dok.
1st hint ade terletak di atas.
Pandai2 la pikir eh.

And lastly, you said you know who she really is and what is her true color.
Haha.
I'm telling you, you don't know but now, you'll get to know.
=)

Anyway, love MAY become hate and vice-versa.

Addition, Life is game kn? So, just accept that you just lost a game in life.

I didn't realize I typed a lot of your BS-ness in this post.
Haha.

2010-04-23T22:20:00.003+08:00

Currently at Mac with Aishah.
She still studying and I'm pissed off with the LEO system
I've done my RJ from just now but when I clicked on the submit button, it didn't submit.
Then, got to know, I need to connect to VPN first before I could submit. -_-
Haha.

K now, Aishah's done with her studying and she's playing with her lappy.
She's taking this opportunity to use her lappy because her internet at home is down.

Anyway, 1 week of school had just passed.
I swear, it is so quick.
It's only last week I started school and today, I've already ended my 2nd week.
Fuhh..
Time really do fly very fast, especially when you're an RP student.
=)

2010-04-23T10:11:00.003+08:00

Currently in class now.
Feel so tired and sleepy.
Project Management & Scheduling today.

I'm just looking forward to 2 things.
Meeting Aishah later and the weekends.
Whee!

Hmm..
I wonder what I should do this weekend.
Anyway, anyone wanna go to Wild Wild Wet or Escape theme park?
I got 4 free tickets?
Wann, Az, nak g?
Haha.
Mendak.

K then.
Back to class lesson.
Bye.

I miss you.

We are back! =)

2010-04-19T23:14:00.003+08:00

The 100808 couple are back together!
Yeah!
I miss you so much Aishah.
Now, we're back together, I hope we never have to part again.
I love you alot alot.
Muacks!

Today is the 2nd happiest day of my life.
=)

Worst weekend so far..

2010-04-18T21:48:00.001+08:00

The worst weekend I've had so far..
Got no one but myself to blame..
Fuck you la Myzan..
Bodoh kepeeee..
Arghhh..

Sigh..

2010-04-17T00:04:00.003+08:00

1st week of school over!
Finally, it's the weekends!
I talked as if I just ended 5 days of school.
Padehal 2 days je.
Haha.

Gawd..
Only 2 days of school and I already felt so restless.
And I'm already looking forward to the weekend.
Haha.
Still got 15 more weeks to go.
Sigh..

Anyway, tomorrow might be going out but don't know where.
Haha.
Saiba, plan properly laaaa..
Haha.
But wherever and whatever it is, my good friend Canon EOS 550D will definitely follow me.
Hee.
Gonna take the opportunity to learn new methods of photography.
=).

K then.
Bye bye.

Year 2!

2010-04-16T00:03:00.003+08:00

1st day of Year 2 Semester 1..
Hmm..
How would I rate it?
I guess it went well except for the unexpected spotcheck.
Was able to co-operate with my team members and the class looks lively too.
I can see a potential that this class is going to be wild.
Haha.
I guess only time will tell.

Anyway, I'm becoming like somewhat more well-known in RP suddenly.
Hahaha.

Welcome back to RP..

2010-04-14T23:10:00.002+08:00

What a thing to happen before starting school tomorrow.
Just now I went to Eunos Interchange to buy my bus concession pass for tomorrow.
I rode my bicycle there.
When I wanted to ride it back home, suddenly, I couldn't pedaled it and I fell off.
Fuck sia..
Buat malu je..
But funny ah.
Haha.
Then I pushed my bicycle all the way home.
Haha.

Anyway, I just don't get some people that always do/say the wrong things at the wrong time.
And addition to that, they can't see the obviousness of some things.
Can someone find me a word for these kind of people and tag me.
Thank you.
Haha.

K then, gonna iron my clothes for tomorrow.
I wonder what time will I sleep later.
Hmm..

2010-04-13T21:09:00.002+08:00

Countdown to reopen of school: 2 days.
Fast or whaaaaaat..
Haha.

K, simply I got nothing to blog about.
Hmm..
My face is growing pimples back.
School's about to start then you pimples wanna pop out ah.
Bagus..
Haha.

Anyway, yesterday got to test my new camera.
Still learning though.
Haha.

And at last Wann ko unprivate blog ko.
Haha.

Hmm..
I guess that's all for now.
Bye.

Whoooo!!

2010-04-11T22:29:00.002+08:00

Whooooo!!
Firstly, Hello Canon EOS 550D!!
Yeah!!
Finally, got my DSLR camera.
Hee.
Thanks Dad and Mum.
Woohoo!!
=))
K, yesterday I told you guys that I went for YouthOut right?
Well, I did and it was AWESOMEEEEEEEEEE!!!
It was way way better than last year's.
When I reached there, I was so shocked to see a lot of people there.
Haha.
Because last year there were so few people.
Went there with Saiba then meet Aishah.
I had lots of fun yesterday, dancing and shouting like some crazy person.
I even danced with an Indian guy.
Hahahahaha.
But, I really really really had fun.
It wasn't one of those days afterall.
=).
I guess I have a hidden talent in Indian dance.
Hahaha.
Gonna learn to breathe fire and walk on sticks.
Kwang3.

Whooo!
What a weekend before school starts.
Just the way I like it.
=).

Welcome Y2S1.

2010-04-10T14:42:00.003+08:00

Just got my class roster.
Again, same thing.
I'm the only malay guy. -_-
But the good thing is, there are more malay girls now.
Hee.
3 different classes for 5 days.
E56C, E46F & E44J.
Haish..
Da kene start igt class mane utk hari pe sak gini.
Lau tk paisey sak msk sala class.
Haha.
1st day of school da kene pakai smart.
Cibs!

100410

2010-04-10T14:28:00.003+08:00

Just got home from Sportacular.
We didn't make it to the Finals.
Lost one and drew one in our group.
Yeah.
Will be going to YouthOut later at night.
Might be playing pool or bowling with Saiba & co. later before going YouthOut.

Well, today, is starting be one of those days.
K then.
Bye.

The FUN chalet

2010-04-09T13:58:00.005+08:00

I'm gonna start with this.
Some people should just put their words where their mouth is because if you don't meant what you said, don't said it. And don't tell others to do if you yourself don't do it. Isn't that being a hypocrite? Idiot.

K, I'm gonna post about my chalet last week.
Got a lot to talk about actually but I'll just skip to the main moments and let the pictures talk.

There are actually a lot of pictures but I just posted some.
There were plenty of food, plenty of fun, plenty of people, plenty of games, plenty of ciggs(except on the last day), plenty of smoke, plenty of laughter, plenty of space to sleep, plenty of madness moments, plenty of regrets, etc.

But out of all, I would gladly say that the chalet was a success. Fun was there, laughter was there and the old times, were definitely there.
I'm sorry for those who didn't get to sleep, some people just are inconsiderate.
Next time, I'll have a guestlist. Haha.
And not forgetting, Selipar Pakcik Bte Seluar.
Hahahahahahahahaahahahaha.
The one thing this chalet will be remembered for.
And not forgetting also, a guest star appearance, TOMOK a.k.a Mirul.
Hahahaha.

Well, I had fun, and I hope those who were there had fun too.
=)
See you guys on Raya then.

K then.
That's all for now.
Bye.

2010-04-07T23:57:00.002+08:00

Just now, went to play soccer at The Cage again.
This time, played with my former Primary School friends.
I've got a swollen ankle currently, result of a bad challenge.
Luckily I'm used to it.
Gonna ICE it later on.
Hear that?
Haha.

Hmm..
I wonder if I'll be fit by Saturday for the Sportacular event.
Anyway, I received a message just now that I had to report there latest by 7.20 a.m.!
WTF!
They told me that my whole team must be there for registration.
7.20 a.m.??!!
The event starts at 9 a.m. sia.
Haiyaaa..
If we're not there by 7.20 a.m., we'll be disqualified.
Mepek.
I wonder if I can even wake up that early, when I always wake up around 1 or 2 no matter what time I sleep.
Haha.
That's me during my holidays.

Talking about holidays, next week's school's gonna reopen.
Somehow, I'm looking forward to it.
New classmates mah.
Hee.
But I still think they should start on the 19 like any other Poly's.
Wonder why they wanna start on the 15.

K then.
Bye.

What it used to be like

2010-04-07T00:42:00.000+08:00

Turning back the pendulum.
=)

Sick of being sick

2010-04-04T20:13:00.002+08:00

Hate being sick.
Currently, covered with two layers of clothing plus a blanket.
Had fever on Friday, then yesterday was fine except at night when I had running nose.
And, today, I had fever again.
The worst thing about it, is that I have to shower myself with a pail of cold water, addition, two blocks of ice, the size of an ice cream tub, each.
Just had that just now.
Brrrrrr...
Guess that's all for now.
Bye.

A day after heartbreak

2010-04-03T22:39:00.004+08:00

K, just got back from soccer tournament at The Cage, Kallang.
I was sick when I reached there, but now, I'm just freaking tired.
Was sick from yesterday actually, since returning home from chalet.
Well, we won third placing just now.
Should have won 1st or 2nd, but I don't want to comment on the bullshitness of the referee.
So, we won ourselves $200 in cash.
Ain't that quite sweet.
Would have won more if we have gotten 1st or 2nd.

So, next week I'll be playing in the Sportacular soccer tournament at Petal Garden.
Heard that the 1st team will win $250 in cash, 2nd team $200 and 3rd team $150.
Hmm..
This is getting interesting.
Then at night, might be going to YouthOut, if I get the ticket.

Anyway, will update about the chalet soon.
Wann, Slipar Pakcik Binte Seluar.
Hahahahahahahahhahahahahahahhahaha.

And not forgetting, Man U lost.
Woohoo!

For you, Hassan..

2010-04-01T23:37:00.003+08:00

Confused.
Are you dreaming?
If so, wake the fuck up.
It's time to realize.
You are not who you think you are.
And you can NEVER be that.
What's mine can NEVER be yours.
So, just FUCK OFF!

α'сαии ϟ new lap: me and aishah has nothing on . we are just friends .

Really???
Hah.

Kental or Mepek??

2010-03-30T23:48:00.003+08:00

K, I just found out something.
Someone blocked me from his MSN.
Hahahahahahahahahaha.
Da add aku abe block.
Kental or mepek??
You decide.

Chicken, chicken..

2010-03-30T22:41:00.001+08:00

I just carried 8kg of chicken wings from the supermarket to my home.
Damn heavy siaa..
It was a 15 minutes walk from the supermarket to my home and so, my arms are aching right now.
Mampos..
Mcm mane aku nk bwk g chalet eh bsk..
Haha.

Anyway, I just learnt to play the song My Heart Will Go On thanks to Wann.

I miss you, Aishah

2010-03-30T02:26:00.001+08:00

I miss you.. so much..

Happy 16th Birthday to YOU. =)

2010-03-28T22:18:00.008+08:00

Firstly, HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO AISHAH!
Whoo!
Da blh ngk NC16 movies la eh.
Hahaha.
Anyway, I wish you all the best in everything you do and hope that you'll get what you want to achieve in your life. And also, hope that you live your life to the fullest. Okay?
Goood.

K, this post is all gonna be about the birthday girl.
So, bear with me.Haha.

K, her birthday's today but we went to celebrate it yesterday. We went to ECP to have a mini picnic there. Supposed to be there at 2 but because the birthday girl wants to perm her hair, we ended up reaching there at 3.
Haha.
Met Aishah under her block then went to buy chips before taking bus 15 to Marine Parade.
Then, we meet the rest at Block 27 of Marine Parade before heading to ECP.
Once we reached there, Saiba, Az & Acap went to eat at Komala's.
The curry there nice sia. Haha.
But the menu, very strange names. Haha.
Saiba went to buy this inflated bread thing that looks like Acap's head. Haha.
That was the first time I saw that food.
After that, went to find a place.
Ok, this part I don't think someone will be happy to read.
While I was putting up the tent, Aishah dropped her cigg because the wind blow.
Same incident like me.
Then I quickly told her to pick it up because ECP confirm have NEA people walking around.
She picked it up. But after she finished it, she went to put the cigg bud at the sand. Pandai.
Acap & I were setting up the tent at that time. Then I realised two people were walking towards us and looking at us.
I was like, " Why you looking at us sia??". Then, got to know, they are from NEA. Shiiiiiittt..
Then blablabla, $300 fine birthday present for her. Sad sia.
Kk, moving on. We then just sit around, talk talk, play taitee, disturb people, etc.
Then the "monkeys" there kept pulling my leg hair. I know la you all don't have leg hair. Haha.
And I just got to know Saiba is a Pinoy. Don't actually know what that means. Haha.
Played one on one taitee with Aishah. I thought I can own her but she won me quite a lot of times.
Cibs!
I brought my guitar and played the only song I know to Aishah. Happy birthday song. Hahaha. And I didn't know Saiba could play the guitar very well until yesterday.
Jealous sia at her quick fingers.
Then at around 6pm, Saiba had to go back to school for her Earth Hour CIP thing. Then Az & Acap went to town.
So, left me & Aishah. We did not know where to go. So, we just headed to her home, put our stuffs, ate at KFC then slacked at Petal's.
Aishah kept asking me if she should delete the songs that she showed me. Like as if I know only if she likes the song or not. Haha.
Then we went off from there around 10plus. Dropped by Mac to buy for her McFlurry & Iced Milo.
Then sent her home, picked up my stuffs, gave her a hug & wished her a happy advanced birthday.

I hope you did had a good 16th Birthday. Once again, Happy 16th Birthday to you.
& I don't think you should perm your hair.
=)

More pics..

Pure randomness

2010-03-26T23:34:00.002+08:00

K, this is random.
I just ate curry chicken just now & it reminded me of what my friend asked me yesterday.

Why ah, animals like the panda, the shark are going extinct but chickens, which is like a daily meal for almost every human, is not going extinct?
Why ah?

Ya ah, why ah??

Weird right??
Haha.
But what's more weird is Benjamin Button which I'm watching right now.
He's born old & died a baby.
How cool is that??
Haha.

Yeahness..

2010-03-26T15:24:00.005+08:00

K, I'm back..
Chalet went well, didn't actually sleep for 2 nights.
Played my baby 24/7.
Hahaha.
K, that sounds wrong.
I mean my guitar.
Haha.
Yeah, I'm been stuck to it since yesterday.
Really fun.
Should have learnt to play guitar long long long time ago..
Haha.
I have yet to receive any pictures taken during the chalet.
So, I guess I'll upload some other time then.
Now, I'm looking forward to the next chalet next week.
Whee..
Reunion beb.
Hahaha.

Anyway, finally got to check my results.
Yeahness.
So, here are my UT3 results.

B216-Marketing : B+!
B101-Entrepreneurship : A!
A114-Mathematics : B+??????
B215-Financial Accounting : C+.. -_-
G102-Cognitive Processes & Problem Solving Skills : A!

GPA : 3.15!!

Haha.
I don't know if the GPA is inclusive of the 1st semester.
I think it is ah, but important is, it's above 3.
Whee..
My 1st semester I got GPA 3.2.
So, I can say that I deproved.
Is there even such a word???
Haha.

K, going to play my baby now.
Gonna learn some more songs.
Whee..

2010-03-25T16:04:00.002+08:00

Currently at home now.
Just got back from chalet.
Will be going back to chalet later.
My class decided to book another night.
So, yeah.

K, things aren't going on so well right now for me.
Yesterday, experienced something which I have not experienced since I was 10.
I think I am.
But heck care.

Anyway, I have yet to check my results.
I still couldn't check it because my password has expired.
Haiyaa..
I'm anxious to know my results.
Cibs!

And oh, I learnt to play a song while at chalet yesterday.
Hee.
Mission Accomplished.

If this is it, then this is it..

Sometimes I feel..

2010-03-24T03:30:00.001+08:00

Patience is key.

Untitled

2010-03-23T22:26:00.007+08:00

Finally..
Internet's been very lagging..
I don't know why..
Someone said that the MSN is having problems today.
Class chalet is also confirmed.
It will be tomorrow.
And lastly, UT3 results are out.
I can't check it.
Internet won't allow me.
Cibs!

K, today, YOG, was a blast!
Yeah baby!
It was easier than what I expected.
The participants were friendlier than what I thought they are.
So, to wrap it up, everything went according as planned.
Yeah!

Their wishes.

Something just doesn't feel right.
I'm worried but I can't do anything.

Always..

Shit!

2010-03-22T22:10:00.003+08:00

Shit!
Tomorrow's 23 March.
Linch kepeeeeee..
Arghhhh..
So not ready for YOG.
Tomorrow's the pre-run of the actual YOG.
45 Representatives from the participating countries will be at Marina Barrage tomorrow to experience what the athletes will experience.
Shit!
Not ready, not ready..
Haish..

Need to report there by 10am tomorrow.
Don't know how much time we are given to practice.
I hope it'll be enough.

Anyway, I didn't learn to play the guitar today.
Haha.
I woke up around 3, bathe, eat, then went out to meet Wann, Mirul and Razak to discuss about chalet.
Razak went off early then Faris came.
We slacked at block 150 until 9.30pm.

Tomorrow's a big day.
Haish..
Gonna learn to play the guitar now.
Bye.

2010-03-21T22:25:00.003+08:00

I'm trying to kill my boredom currently.
Since tomorrow won't be going to the GYM because Razak wants to rest,
so I'm now going to kill time learning to play the guitar.
Yeah..
I hope to learn to play at least a song before the school reopens.
Jason Mraz, give me your wisdom.
Haha.

I'm dying..

2010-03-21T16:27:00.003+08:00

Currently feeling very bored.
I don't know what to blog about.
Hmm..

Maybe I'll talk about my hair.
Haha.
My hair used to have a lot of dandruffs.
But after using Heads & Shoulders shampoo, the dandruffs are now decreasing.
I think they're gone by now.
So, for those who have a lot of dandruffs, please, use Heads & Shoulders.
It really works.
Haha.

I'm dying..
Out of boredom..

200310..

2010-03-20T22:46:00.008+08:00

200310..
Mum's birthday outing..
Here's how it goes..

Firstly, went to Suntec City..
There were a lot of people there.
First time Suntec ade byk org.
Haha.
Two events were happening there.
One was a travel fair and the other was an Okto event, Big World for Curious Thoughts.
The travel fair had some Korean people, I think performing.
Here are some of the pictures.
I actually took a video of them performing.
Maybe I'll upload them in my next post.

The Korean performers.

Big world for Curious Tots.
Look who's here.
Bugs Bunny and Tweety!
Hahaha.

After that, we headed to the Singapore Flyer.
My mum wanted to ride it.
Her wish came true.
I expected a few people to be there.
But there were a lot.
Hmm..
Must be because of the date.
Haha.

Me and the Birthday 'Girl'.
Hahaha.

Getting ready for the ride.

Spot the people.
Haha.

The upcoming IR.

The park??

Don't be deceived.
This a look of boredom.
Haha.

On top of..
Singapore Flyer.
Haha.

Hmm..
Nga pikir pe ntah eh bdk ni.

Don't be deceived again.
Haha.

The floating platform and the durians.
Haha.

I don't what's that.
I think this one is the upcoming IR.
Haha.

Eye of horus.
Hahaha.

This is nice.

After the ride, we went to eat at Popeye's and then we headed to Marina Barrage.
The scenery at the Marina Barrage was nice.
A lot of people were still flying kite there at night.
And the water fountains are nice.

I'm getting sick of the barrage now.
Have been going there like almost every week now.
Haha.
Will be going there again on Tuesday.
Haiyoyo..

Myzan with a drop of NEWater.

As you can see above, it is a picture of a camera.
It's here because I want one of these.
I was so amused by the people who were taking pictures using these kinds of cameras.
So, I told my mum to buy me one & she say she'll talk to my dad.
Hee.
I hope I get one of these.
Taking pictures seems really fun with these.
=)

And, and, something unexpected happened.
Hee.
Really make my day.
=)

Singapore should be like this everyday.

2010-03-20T15:28:00.003+08:00

Today's weather is very nice to sleep.
It was raining all the while and the wind is so breezy.
How I wish it will be like this every single day, just without the rain.
So syiok.
Haha.
But too bad I have to go out today.
I still wanna sleep!
=(
K then, going to get ready now.
Bye.

Happy 50th Birthday!

2010-03-20T02:49:00.003+08:00

200310..

Today, someone just turned 50.

Happy 50th Birthday Mum!

=)

2010-03-19T22:30:00.003+08:00

I did what I exactly said I'll do in my last post.
Played badminton, went for prayers, slacked a while and have an enjoyable weather at home.
Luckily it rained.

So, I just woke up from my nap.
Feel really refreshed.
I wonder if I can sleep tonight.
Hmm..

K, tomorrow's my mum's birthday.
She's turning 50 tomorrow.
Da tua mak aku ni.
Haha.
Anyway, will be going to Singapore Flyer tomorrow.
Tickets are already bought.
So, yeah..

Btw, I wanna apologize to someone for some things that I've done.
Firstly, I wanna apologize if I made you mad for the things between me and him.
I'm sorry for my big ego.
I know I shouldn't meddle in anything you do now.
But, I just can't.
I'm sorry.

Secondly, I'm sorry that I freaked you out.
Here are my explanations.
For the one at Changi Airport, I just wanted to see for myself that you had a safe trip.
Because I was worried and I sort of miss you.
For the one about 'stalking' you to your tuition center, I was waiting for my friend under his block when I saw you walked by.
I didn't see properly so I went to take a look again and 'followed' you.
So, I guess that's when your friend caught me.
But I didn't follow you all the way, it was just until the block near the bus stop.
And the one about seeing you yesterday, I was in the bus when I saw you walking home alone along the pathway in front of the 'rainbow' block.

If you read this,
I hope you forgive me.

If you need someone to talk to,
someone to listen to you,
you know I'm here for you.

Tonning..

2010-03-19T05:00:00.002+08:00

Gonna play badminton later, at 8am at Tamp Sports Hall.
With Az, Wann and Wann's friend.
Not gonna sleep because got Liverpool match.
Liverpool currently leading 1-0 in the match.
But 1-1 on aggregate.
So, I wonder how I'm going to be later.
Planned to sleep once I get back from prayers.
Yeah..
Hope so..

2010-03-18T22:58:00.003+08:00

Just got back home.
Went to Bugis just now to buy something for my mum since her birthday's only 2 days away.
After that, shopped for a while.
Then meet Wann under his block to discuss about the chalet.
Actually, discussed nothing.
So, slacked for a while before going off at around 10p.m.

Now, I'm being accused of something.
Haish..
Best..

2010-03-18T13:47:00.005+08:00

"You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see,

cover your ears to things you don't want to hear, but

you can't close your heart to things you don't want to

feel."

2010-03-18T01:34:00.003+08:00

For the first time, I have to admit.
Reading got me smiling.

It's just hard to ignore the impact you made in someone's life.
And knowing that he or she really appreciates the littlest of deeds that you do.
Addition to that, they wish you were someone very close to them.
How's that? Great isn't it?

Honestly, how many of you feel great when you make someone else smile?
I'm sure all of you do.
I know I do.

I'm still reading, fyi.
=)

Busy, busy

2010-03-17T23:52:00.002+08:00

Currently busy with planning of chalets.
Class chalet & Reunion chalet.
Class chalet is almost confirmed.
If everything goes right, it will be on 24th March.
Reunion chalet still pending with Az currently suggesting to change the dates, in which I agree fully.
Haha.
So come on people, let's get this done & over with.
=)

Hmm..
Today nothing interesting actually happen.
Just woke up, bathe, eat then went out.
Played soccer, slacked and went home.
Yeah..

My body still aching.
But somehow, it feels great.
Haha.
But I can't stretch my hands properly.
Ouch..

2010-03-17T14:12:00.003+08:00

Remember Me is an unforgettable story about the power of love, the strength of family, and the importance of living passionately and treasuring every day of one's life.

Soo..
Anyone wanna watch??
Can watch with me.
Hee.
It will be out on cinemas tomorrow.
Yeahness.

Bullshit

2010-03-17T04:51:00.004+08:00

This is bullshit.

This thing running through my mind,

is pure, utter BULLSHIT-NESS.

No mood?
Fuck ah!

YOG 3rd Training..

2010-03-16T23:50:00.017+08:00

Firstly, I am glad you're back safely and soundly.
Thank you God.

So, today was YOG's 3rd training before next week's pre-run.
Haiyaaa..
Leceh ah..
Haha.
Today, we went through what we need to say, do, tell, give, share, etc at our own station.
Yeah..
So, I think I just let the videos and pictures do the talking for me.

The Station

Throw the pail into the reservoir.

Collect water

Pull the pail out of the water

The Way We Do It

Water Sampling! Haha.

Yeah.
So, I hope you guys get a glimpse of what I'll be doing.
Anyway, if you can see from the above picture, there is this microphone and speaker thing.
Me and two other teammates were given one each and we were to bring it along wherever we go for the whole day.
Fuuhh..
Heavy dok.
Haha.
We were so called to guard it with our lives.
Yeah..
My body is still aching from yesterday's workout.
Argh..
Oouh, oouh, before I forgot, I learnt a bit of French just now.
Hee.
That's all for YOG.

After YOG, went to Changi Airport to see someone.
Get to see her.
But she didn't see me.
Hee.
Really glad that you made it back safely and soundly.

I miss you..

Class Chalet

2010-03-16T00:28:00.000+08:00

Hmm..
Looks like class chalet is confirmed.
Just left with me to book..

Feeling shit..

2010-03-15T23:49:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling shit currently..
Ya..
FUCK!

So, currently watching "So you think you can dance?".
Today is a tiring day.
Woke up at 11a.m. then bathe, eat and went out.
Went to GYM at Tampines with Razak.
Cycled there.
Reached there at 1.15p.m and found out that we have to leave by 2.
Me and Razak were like, WTF!
Haha.
Because today there is a women's hour from 2 to 4.
So, we just went in and make do with the time we have.
Razak taught me the various ways and methods and the machines that I should work on to improve my chest, biceps and packs.
Yeah.
So we did it together with Razak leading me.
It was really aching to do those work outs.
My arms and chest were really aching.
Then need to breathe in and out properly some more.
Haha.

After that we went to slack at Tamp, then BTP then head to 4PM.
We talked about Illuminati la, living a celebrity life in USA la, sing song la, the past la, and blabla la.
Yeah..
Illuminati is seriously an interesting topic to know about.
For those who don't know, go find out.
This may affect you.
Anyway..
BTP sure do brings back a lot of memories.
Haish...
At 4PM, I got the usual welcome question.
"Cine eh??"
Haha.
Malay la, malay.
Haha.
They were preparing for their camp on Thursday so they were packing their equipments needed.
Razak was a part of 4PM so that's why we're there.
After that, went to slack again for a while before playing soccer.

Fuuhh..
Soccer was tough, really really tough just now.
Played at Petal and the people there were just too quick for me.
Reallyyyyyy..
Although I'm fast, no match for their teamwork.
So, played until 10 before resting then head home.

I'm starting to feel the aches now, like what Razak had told me earlier.
Shit man..
If this goes on, I'm going to die for my training tomorrow.
Yeah..
Tomorrow have YOG training again at Marina Barrage from 10am to 6pm.
8 hours of hell if this keeps up.
Haha.
Let's just hope for the best.
Tomorrow will be the last training I think before next week's pre-run of the actual YOG.
Still can't believe I'm part of this.
Just can't wait to get my very own exclusive VISA card from them.
Hee.
K then.
Bye.

You disgust me really.
I want you out, for good.

No letter from NEA..

2010-03-14T22:08:00.002+08:00

Ooouh ya..
I forgot to mention.
No letter from NEA yesterday.
I'm starting to have the feeling that my lucky charm is still with me.
Yeah baby!

K then.
Bye.

The Weekends, without you..

2010-03-14T21:01:00.018+08:00

Ok, The Geek's back from his weekend.
So, how did my weekend go??
My weekend eh..
My weekend goes..
Hmm..
My weekend..
Hmm..
In 1 word la eh..
Incomplete.
Yeah..
That's how my weekend goes..

Sooooo..
Let's start with Saturday..
Saturday was ok laaa..
Woke up at 12 p.m. after getting my sleep finally..
Then eat and stuffs..
Just doing the normal things at home.
Then at around 4plus, get ready to go out.
Went to Bedok Corner to eat with family.
After eating, while waiting for my dad to finish smoking, I looked at the car next to me.
I was looking at my own reflection.
I was staring at the mirror for a moment while styling my hair before I realised there was actually someone inside the car.
Haha.
Then I burst into laughter.
Paisey-tosay.
Haha.
Then we went to Raffles City for some shopping.
It was already 7 plus when we reached there.
So, while my mum and dad were shopping at Robinsons, me and my brothers do our own shopping.
My dad told us that we can only buy one thing each.
No price limit stated.
Hee.
So, I went off to Topman with my brothers.
Found a few pairs of clothes that I liked.
Went to try but not suitable.
Some are too long, some color combination not suitable.
I'm not good at choosing the right clothes that suits me.
So ya..
Maybe I'll buy them at Bugis Street one day.
Duit gaji da ade pe.
Hee.
Then, I went off to other shops to find a pair of black pants.
Blablabla..
Then my dad bought my older bro two pair of 3/4 pants worth $30 each.
Kate je 1 bende.
Mcm phm.
After that, went to Springfield to buy me a pair of black pants.
There were no sizes for me.
But actually, there were.
I took the wrong design from the one I wanted.
Haha.
Slenge.
So, guess how much my pants cost??
Hee.
$108 oi.
Hahaha.
Amek ko!
Haha.
Otw out of the mall, I passed by this waterfall.
Seriously cool shit.
Take a look guys.
See if you spot anything.

Sunday now..
Nothing much actually happen today..
Went to religious school in the morning..
Then head off to soccer match with Cicak at Westwood Sec.
It's at Jurong West and we went there by cab.
Cicak treat the cab fare and also drinks.
And some cigarettes too.
Hee.
Aku tk bodek pn dier blanje.
Baek ah dier eh.
Haha.
Then, it started to rain.
And I was praying that the match won't be canceled.
I've been dying to play on the field for the first time since I don't know when.
Haha.
Soooo, yeah..
Managed to play..
FOR ONLY 10 MINUTES OR SO!
HAIYA!
WASTE TIME JE TAU..
Because my knee got swollen when I came in to play.
Haha.
That's why.
The opponent hit me on the knee with his studs and so ya..
End my game early..
Haish..

I didn't know that the team I was playing for will be participating in the Division 3 of NFL.
This is going to be interesting.
But the coach reminds me of someone.
"Viki Mamada, I love you."
Hahaha.
Only to those who know will understand.
He promised us a lot of bonuses and allowances for every match that we won and also every training we went to.
Whoa..
Tk gerek pe..
Da mcm professional footballer sak.
Haha.
But still, I doubt it..
Hmm..
Next Wednesday have training.
Still deciding if I should go or not.
Don't know if I can commit to the fixtures of the Division 3.

So ya..
To top it all..
My weekend is..
Incomplete.
Yeah..

Anyway, tomorrow will be going to the GYM with Razak.
At 12 p.m.
Hmm..
I wonder if I can wake up early.
Naek basikal plak tu lagi..
Haha.
Cpt la aku 18, da blh amek lesen motorku yg diidam-idamkn sgt2.
Haha.

Trying to occupy my holidays with activities currently.
So Wann, chalet amcm??
Update aku asap jad aku blh g book.

K then.
Bye.

I hope you're enjoying your stay there.

3rd Week..

2010-03-13T12:50:00.003+08:00

Ok..

Today, 3rd week from the day I was caught by NEA.
Hmm..
I wonder if they are still going to send me the letter.
They told me they'll send the letter to my home and my school.
Hmm..
If they do today, I probably have to part with my $300.
=(
Well, like they say, money comes, money goes.

And it looks like its going to rain today.
Best ni lau tdo.
Hee.
Anyway, I managed to sleep yesterday.
So, till here then.
Bye.

Best friends never let you down =)

2010-03-13T01:47:00.007+08:00

Firstly, sorry eh Zak lau gmbr ni mcm mepek.
Haha.
Ni je la gmbr yg aku ade yg ade aku ngn ko je.
Haha.
Zaman skinnies ngn buckles dok.
Hahaha.

So, anyway, thanks for meeting me just now.
Thank you for listening to me.
Thank you for telling me what to do now.
Thank you for making me smile.
Thank you for making me laugh.
In times like this, I really do need that.
Thank you for sharing your experiences.
Thank you for making me feel like myself again.
And thank you for the time.
Really appreciate it a lot dude.
I know this may sound gay, but I'm glad I have a bestie like you.
Haha.
Thanks Zak.
=)

Anyway, just now I saw a lot of couples fighting.
I think I saw 3 couples.
1 couple was really fighting.
I mean really really.
The boyfriend threw his girlfriend's phone on the floor twice.
And they were like shouting at each other.
That time, I was with Razak.
He told me this is what every couple wants to avoid.
He told me we shouldn't be like that.
If angry just punched anything that's near to you.
Hahaha.
Agreed.

Is this a sign of things to come?
Hmm..
I hope so not.
K then.
Bye.
Thanks Zak, again, for the time.
=)

Two is better than one..

2010-03-12T16:09:00.006+08:00

Two is better than one (BLG feat Taylor Swift)

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face, The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste You make it hard for breathing 'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away I think of you and everythings okay And finally now, we're leaving

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

Two is better than one..

I can't..

2010-03-12T05:48:00.012+08:00

I can't sleep..
I can't stop thinking about you..
I can't believe this is happening..
I can't stop crying..
I can't forget the moments..
I can't forget the smiles..
I can't forget the happiness..
I can't forget the day..
I can't forget the kisses..
I can't forget the hugs..
I can't forget the loves..
I can't forget the cares..
I can't forget the laughters..
I can't be strong without you..
I can't believe..
I can't say goodbye..
I can't be alive..
I can't live without you..
I can't let go..
I can't let go of what is, my life..
I can't go on like this..
I can't..

I'm sorry I can't..
I really, really need you..
I'm sorry..

I can't..

I need you..

2010-03-11T14:44:00.003+08:00

I Need You (The Beatles)

You don't realise how much I need you.
Love you all the time and never leave you.
Please come on back to me.
I'm lonely as can be. I need you.

Said you had a thing or two to tell me.
How was I to know you would upset me?
I didn't realise as I looked in your eyes...
You told me.

Oh yes, you told me, you don't want my lovin' anymore.
That's when it hurt me.
And feeling like this, I just can't go on anymore.

Please remember how I feel about you, I could never really live without you.
So, come on back and see just what you mean to me.
I need you.

But when you told me, you don't want my lovin' anymore.
That's when it hurt me.
And feeling like this, I just can't go on anymore.
Please remember how I feel about you.
I could never really live without you.
So, come on back and see just what you mean to me.
I need you. I need you. I need you...

Thanks Wann..

2010-03-11T04:21:00.001+08:00

Thanks Wann.
For lending me your ear.
I really needed someone to talk to.
Someone to advise me on what I should do now.
You make me realise a lot of things.
I'm definitely going to make up for lost time.
Thanks a lot Wann.
=)

I should never have left you.
I should be with you.
Supporting you.
I know you're in pain, just like I am.
We've been through so many shits together, and we made it through,
I'm sure we have a solution to this shit too.
I'm not thinking about myself now, but about you.
I know what you need, I know what you want.
And I should be there, for you, giving you my full support and everything else that you need.
I want you to succeed, I really do.

I need you back..

2010-03-10T16:41:00.008+08:00

Today, was supposed to be one of those days..
One of those 10s..
One of those moments..
One of those..

I couldn't sleep..
I thought about you the whole night..
I cried the whole night..
Even mother nature cried with me..
I've told you that you'll still be the first one I think of when I wake up and the last before I went to sleep.
I take that back.
You're the only thing I think of..
I feel sleepy, but I can't sleep.
You're running through my mind.
I can't live without you.
You're my other half.
I'm sorry..
I'm sorry for bringing this up..
If you are to read this,
you are to ignore it.
This is what I have to go through..
There's no more through thick & thin together..
I'm sorry..
I just..
need..

Because I can't sleep till you're next to me
No I can't live without you no more
Oh I stay up till you're next to me
Till this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia..

I NEED YOU, AISHAH, I REALLY DO..

100808 - 090310

2010-03-09T22:18:00.003+08:00

I guess it's true that nothing lasts forever.
I never thought that this day will come.
But, it did, sadly..

Today, there's no more Aishamyzan..
Yes, no more..
I'm sad..
I've been crying..
I know it won't do anything now..
When I looked at your face, tears rolled down..
When I flashbacked the memories we had, tears rolled down..
But, the one I cried most was about the night I am yours..
100808..
But, if what's written for me is the best for you..
I'll accept it..
But, I have to admit, what's best for you, is worst for me..
I left you with a smile..
I hope you will still smile at the hardest times..

Dear Aishah,

Thank you for everything.
Thank you for your love and care.
Never have I felt so loved by someone.
I've told you that I will always love you.
I'll love you forever.
You're definitely my other half.
Every moment I spent with you, it is special.
These five words I swear to you.
I'll be there for you.
Study hard k Aishah.
I know you have that potential.
Just need to put more effort.

With lots of love,
Myzan

I guess there won't be a 2nd Anniversary..

YOG 2nd Component training

2010-03-09T15:56:00.005+08:00

It was the 2nd training for the YOG event in August.
Today was component training.
So, my place of venue is Marina Barrage.
Reached there around 10 a.m.
We started our training at around 10.30 a.m.
Today wasn't as fun as yesterday.
I was yawning a lot today.
Lack of sleep..
Simply, today they just went through with us what will happen on the actual day and how it's going to happen.
My station was the Water Sampling station.
So, we have to three stations where the athletes will have to collect water to test for salinity and turbidity of each type of water(seawater, fresh water and tap water).
Salinity is the amount of salt in the water and turbidity determines how clear the water is.

My station is at the Marina Bridge.
The Marina Bridge separates the seawater and the fresh water.
(As shown below)

So, the athletes will need to collect water using a pail.
They will need to throw the pail down and bring the water up.
Just like trying to get water from a well.
They will then have to fill up another pail to a certain amount.
It will be marked on the pail.
Once they fill up the pail, then they will be able to test the salinity and turbidity of the water.
Once tested, they will record it and moved on to the next station.
Since they will be likely to be separated into 3 teams,
each team will be appointed to 1 station at first.
We decided to make the activity a bit competitive to make it more fun.
We will timed them.
Since they are athletes, they should be competitive by nature.
So, it suits them.
The purpose of this activity is to tell them that not all clear water are drinkable.
You cannot see the small particles that are in the water.
Only 1% of the water in the world are consumable.
And, I forgot what to say anymore.
Haha.
Will remember in the next training.
K then.
Bye.

You'll Never Walk Alone

2010-03-08T22:56:00.003+08:00

I'm finally done with the picture for my blog.
Yeah, it's a collage of the people who surrounds me.
The phrase, "You'll Never Walk Alone" (taken from Liverpool FC) is to remind me that,
I do not have to face any difficulties on my own.
I have friends, families and my girlfriend by my side.
They're there when I need them.
Ya, so, finally, it's done.

Should I be happy?
Should I deceive my emotions?
Should I keep it to myself?
Should I be sad?
Should I cry?
I mean, I don't know where I stand now.
Where do I stand now?

Reunion?

2010-03-08T21:10:00.002+08:00

Reunion?
Yes, I sense a reunion too Wann.
Me, Az and Wann are planning on a chalet.
If the number of people coming and the dates are confirmed,
it's just left with booking the chalet.
We have also known the price of the chalet so, it's all done if all goes well.
Let's hope together eh Wann.
Haha.
Aku tau ko ngn Az excited.
Haha.

Anyway, not forgetting, 2 more days to 19th Monthsary.
Time really do fly quickly.
=)

I miss you, terribly.. =(

YOG 1st Core Training; Facilitation Skills

2010-03-08T19:49:00.003+08:00

Today was the 1st core training for the YOG event in August, I think.
Haha.
It was about facilitation skills.
At first, we all came in with no idea of what we are going to go through.
We started off with a quick brief of what's going to happen at Marina Barrage.
Yes, the YOG athletes will be going to Marina Barrage during their stay here.
It's part of their activities.
And I have to help out there.
My station is, Water Sampling.
Haha.
The purpose of these activities are simply to create awareness and spread the message on environmental issues going on around the world.
We want to share with them the different types of issues such as water shortage, pollution, energy conservation, etc.
Ok, back to the training just now.
Training started off really fun.
The trainer there, Ikram, is really fun.
He was able to hype us up within minutes.
He told us to bring our chairs to the front.
Then, it was a one minute of silence where everyone wasn't talking but just staring at each other.
Haha.
That moment was funny.
We all looked so blank.
He was just looking at us and nod his head.
Haha.
Seriously, don't know what was happening.
Then he told us that if we do not know what to talk, that will happen.
The athletes will just look at you and you look at them and just keep quiet wondering what's happening.
Haha.
The only group of people there are just SP and RP students.
So, he told us to pair up with a student from another Poly.
So, I paired with this guy in blue.
Coincidentally, I wore blue too just now.
We were to communicate with our pair without using words but facial expression.
Haha.
Funny to the max.
I was made to come up front to show them how me and my pair make a lovely stare.
Haha.
Then we were made to say "I miss you so" to each other.
Haha.
So, the ice-breaking continues. The way he breaks the ice is simply awesome.
He makes it seem so easy.
I will then just skip to the presentation part.
Presentation was super funny.
I never had so much laughter for a long time.
We were all suppose to present an ice-breaking game and relate it to our topic(War, Terrorism, Water Shortage and Global Warming.)
There was one team who presented on Water Shortage.
This is an absolute epic.
Haha.
Seriously, I laughed my ass off just now.
They started the presentation as though it was their first time presenting.
So, their game was to snatch away a water bottle from a person.
The person was to never let it go.
So, everyone tried to snatch it away from the person but failed.
Right after they end the game, one of them said,
"This is water shortage".
HAHAHAHAHA!
I can still laugh while I'm typing.
Haha.
Everyone was simply laughing.
It was really funny ah.
Hahaha.
Another group presented on Global Warming.
Their game was the Squirrel, Tree and Earthquake.
For those who don't know the game, it goes like this.
2 squirrels will hide under a tree, formed by 2 person.
When there is an earthquake, one tree will die and they need to find another tree.
So, after the game.
Their message was,
"So, when there is a forest fire, squirrels will have no trees to live in as the fire burnt down the trees. So, that causes.."
There was a pause and another person continues,
"Global Warming!"
HAHAHAHA!
When there are no trees, that causes global warming??
Hahahaha.
I really enjoyed myself just now.
After the presentations, we were told which stations we will be in by calling out our names.
When my name was called out, I stood up and everyone was like just staring at me.
I knew why and I'm sure those who know me know why too.
For those who don't know, it's because they were shocked to know that I'm a Malay.
Haha.
I get that always.
So, after that, we went for our break and as soon as I stepped out, some people were like asking me if I'm Malay.
Haha.
Expected.
Then they asked me which of my parents is Chinese and I said none.
And they were shocked and asked if I have any Chinese blood running in the family.
I think my mum's granddad or grandmum is a Pranakan.
I think la.
So, went back in the lecture theater and into our groups.
Then came two Malay girls who were put into the same group as me.
They immediately asked me if I'm Malay and ya, I am.
Haha.
They said I looked the typical Chinese but talked like a typical Malay.
And they said that I'm cute.
Hee.
=)
We then carry on with our brainstorming and discussions on the possible problems we could face and the solutions to them.
And with that, we wrapped the training up.
I'm so looking forward for tomorrow's training at Marina Barrage.
But it starts at 10 a.m.
Haiya..
Need to wake up early.
K then.
Bye people.

Revival?

2010-03-06T18:43:00.003+08:00

Just changed my blogskin.
Will put a picture on top of my blog when I'm done with what I planned to put.
Soooo, is this the revival of my so-called dead blog??
Haha.
Maybe.

OK, a lot of things has happened since my last post.
Currently on holiday for 2 months.
Sweeeeet.
19 April 2010, I'll meet new friends.
Can I wait?
Yes, definitely.
Currently looking for job, again.
I had worked as a sales assistant at World of Sports at Tampines 1 and Plaza Singapura when I just started my holiday, hmm, 3 weeks ago I think.
Worked there as part time but more to as a relieve.
$5/hr. Good money man.
Now, the permanent staffs there are back from their annual leave and I have no more work.
But, look at the bright side.
I really gained a lot of experience and also, money.
Hehe.
But, like they say, money comes money goes.
If I'm unlucky, about 1/2 of my salary will go to NEA.
Yes, NEA.
I was caught "littering".
The wind blew my cigarette when I haven't even done yet and it went into the drain.
And it's my fault??
Haish..
I guess this is what I get for being too cocky to my friends who were caught before.
Haha.
So, Myzan, where's your lucky charm now?
Haha.
I hope it's still there.

Then, there was Valentine's Day.
Not what I had in mind, but I had to say, it went as though it's planned.
Didn't get to spend it with Aishah as I had to work but I met her after work and ya.
It was my first Valentine's with her.
=)

During the week, I had my UT3 (Understanding Test 3)
Well, it was ok except for FA (Financial Accounting).
I guess you need to be consistent with the way you prepare yourself for tests or exams.
Because, when I studied the night before for FA, I found it hard when I didn't for the rest of the UT, I found them do-able.
Haha.
Strange but true.

Last Saturday, went out with Aishah.
Planned to eat at Hei Sushi but no buffet on weekends so we ate at Pastamania.
Then, off to Paya Lebar to search for her dance costume.
Then off to Parkway to continue searching.
She bought a lot of things at Parkway before we headed home around 8.30p.m.

On Tuesday, went to play soccer at Kallang with Wann's classmates, Azhar, Nas, and Azhar's friend.
Well, long time didn't play but it feels like I've been playing soccer everyday.
Enjoyed myself.
Then ate at KFC before lepaking at Bedok Inter's skatepark there playing cards.
It's been quite some time I have not lepak with them and I feel like I miss those times.

And Wann, bile nak main badminton?
Ko plan.
Hee.

K, done and done.
So, revival?
We'll see.
Bye.

Entrepreneurship Week 14; Trade Show

2010-01-31T20:42:00.005+08:00

Some of the pictures for Week 14 Entrepreneurship Trade Show.
Yeah, it would have been great if someone just knows what he's talking about.
Come on la, financial analysis is definitely important and you blew it.
How could you even break-even in 1 year???
Serious no-brainer.
And you called yourself good in these kind of business things.
Just fuck yourself la.
Haish..
I'm so in need of better members, or maybe a very good leader for future projects.

Let's put that aside and focus on tomorrow's BRAG's.
BRAG = Battle Republic Annual Games
Yeah, and I'm representing SOH for soccer tomorrow,
although I know that we really have a slight chance of winning.
But the important thing is, I just wanna try the pitch at RP and have some fun and maybe, impress the coach there if there are any watching.

Yeah, that's all for now.
Bye!

Last week of holiday

2010-01-01T23:23:00.003+08:00

Last Saturday, went to Sentosa with Aishah, As, Az, Saiba and Acap.
Really had a relaxing time there.
Got wet, eat, laugh.
Oouh oouh, there was this old woman and her daughter, which is also quite old.
They were wearing bikini there.
People nowadays ah, very high self esteem.
Body wrinkle2 already also wanna wear bikini.
The mum wore orange colour some more, striking.
The daughter wore yellow top and black undie.
Ok, the daughter is seriously power sia.
Went to change into the bikini at the beach itself.
Power right??
Haha.
But no nudity ah, just change there only.
But can see ah she take off her undie and then put on the bikini one.
Haha.
Disgusting high self esteem people.
Another type of people I don't like are those high self esteem fat people.
You know you're fat and you still wanna wear tight shirt, tight pants, mini skirts, dresses, etc.
Haish..
God gives us eyes not to look at you people wearing that.

On Tuesday, went to Seoul Garden with Aishah at E!Hub.
Before that, had a soccer match in the morning at Tampines SAFRA.
It was a long time since I last played on the field.
But it didn't felt like I have not played for a long time.
I scored twice, twice to put my team in front.
After my second goal, that was the winning goal and we went to win 7-3.
We actually started with 9 players against 11.
We were actually down 2-0 before going up 3-2 then 3-3 and then 4-3 and went on to win 7-3.
I like my 2nd goal in the match.
It was a great through ball from Alem Khai before I cut it back inside with my right foot and curled it with my left foot.
That was really unexpected, but beautiful.
Haha.
After the match, followed Aishah to school to buy books then head to Seoul Garden.
E!Hub's Seoul Garden is really cool and convenient.
The waiters there are VERY friendly.
They smiled all the time.
There isn't like the one at Tampines Mall where you have to take your own food.
At E!Hub, you just need to click your orders and it will be delivered to you.
Means, there will be a mouse and you'll choose what you want to cook from the screen.
After you placed your orders, the waiter will bring your food to you so that means we just need to sit down.
I really enjoyed my time there.
I found out I can cook better than Aishah.
=p.

And lastly, Happy New Year to everyone.
Hope we have a Happy 2010.
Yesterday, went to accompany Aishah to her mum's place to deliver some school uniforms.
Then, followed her mum to Shop & Save.
Then we head home to change for countdown.
Seriously sia, why does like most of the people yesterday wore black.
I'm really curious and Aishah was annoyed.
Met As at White Sands, eat BK, have some puffs then head to Downtown East to meet Fauzi and Muhd.
After meeting them, while waiting for Az and Acap, bumped into Taufik and co.
Taufik was drunk and I slapped him.
He was still drunk.
Haish..
People nowadays.
Haha.
Then after Az and Acap arrived, we went to Pasir Ris Park, find a spot and relaxed.
We talked and drink and eat.
Faris and Dee came for awhile before Dee had to go, I think.
Faris then went for chalet.
So, me and Aishah went off around 5.45 a.m.
Then met Faris, Mirul and Cicak at bustop.
They were going home too.
Mirul seems drunk.
Hmm..
Moving on, sent Aishah home and headed home.
Woke up at 12.45p.m. today and lived my normal holiday life.

So, my 2010 resolution.
Hmm..
I'll think about it later.
I usually have no resolution.
So..
Happy New Year to all of you.
Bye.

What the hell sia

2009-12-25T22:04:00.002+08:00

Seriously sia, I don't know what I 've done wrong or right.
Not fulfilling my promises??
What promises I didn't fulfill??
That I won't be too busy for you??
Well, I'm not.
That I'll buy for you the palette if I make you cry??
I did buy for you.
Okay, one promise I know that I didn't fulfill.
I know I didn't make u happy always,
And, I'm sorry for that.
I tried my best everytime to craft out a smile on your face.
I guess my best isn't good enough.
I'm not looking for sympathy or anything from you.
But if I'm not good enough for you, if I can't make you smile anymore but only make u unhappy,
I guess I don't deserve you.
Maybe this love has reached its limit.
But I know it has no limits.
But why is this always happening??
It always happens when we are chatting on msn.
Everytime we have nothing to talk about, this argument/fighting will happen.
Is it because that we are so comfortable when we have each other around that when we are apart then seeing each other's faces on the webcam, we expect it to be the same??
So, when none of us is talking about anything, this happens.
Haish..
Seriously, I don't know why or what or when or who or where or how.
So please b, don't keep anything to yourselves.
Tell me.
It hurts when you hide things from me. Even if the truth hurts, it hurts lesser than lies or hiding it from me.
You think you're the only one who gets hurts everytime, but do you know how hurt I am everytime you did this to me??
Everytime you hide things from me.
Ya, I know you don't want to hurt me, when actually, you have.
So please b, I hate arguing with you.
I hate fighting with you.
It feels so awkward and the situation sucks.
I want to see you smile, I want to make you happy, I want we to be happy just like what you want. I know that it's very hard to understand each others situation but that doesn't mean we can't try right b??
I know the situation has changed unlike the first few months we're in love.
But that's how it's supposed to be.
Remember b, everything happens for a reason.
I love you so much.
I can't believe this is happening.
Please b, this is killing us.
Let's resolve this.
Tell me b if anything isn't right, like you used to.
You used to share your problems with me.
But now, I no longer hear it.
I'm not only your boyfriend b, I'm like your best friend too b.
I'm sorry b..
I'm sorry..

100808
Through thick & thin, together.

Solve your problems

2009-12-09T15:37:00.001+08:00

Solve any problems with one click away remote control.
Hope you enjoy the ad.
Fyi, it's just a class presentation video.

Birthday present from girlfey and E37Q's race for 3rd.

2009-11-20T22:12:00.005+08:00

Yesterday I finally met Aishah. It felt like as if I have not seen her for decades although it was only 6 days I have not met her. Still, 6 days is still long!
Anyway, she gave me a present.
It was so unexpected. I was really surprised.
I guess she's right that she is better at making surprises than I do.
Haha.
So, here's the present.
I'm so happy to receive it.
=))

I'm soooo happy. Thank you baby. I love you.

It's a collage.

There's center picture is actually a card.

Here's what it says..

On 16th November 1992, An angel was born into this cruel world. On 30th July 2008, An angel found me at my darkest moment. That angel brought back the light in my dark life. On 10th August 2008, That angel became a permanent part of my lonely life.

All I want to say is, Happy 17th Birthday, dear angel... I'll be thanking the heavens above for letting an angel stay with me for this long. I love you, Noor Hamyzan Bin Rahmat.

Aww..
I love you too b.
Thank you once again for the present. I appreciate it a lot.

So today, something interesting happen in school.
I've got to be honest. E37Q is getting crazier by the day.
Don't get me wrong. It's a hell damn good thing.
Haha.
Today we just had a race between 3 remaining teams to compete for which team to present 3rd, 4th and 5th. We had to run to the other end, touch the bench and come back.
The first to come back will be the 3rd team to present and so on.
Haha.
And we can thank Shamala for that.
So here's a video which was recorded by Shamala.
I was representing my team. The one in blue is me.

Sean is again the bastard here. He blocked us, me and Jerome, at the other end.
And he was pushed to the wall.
Haha.
Deserved that for what you did, Seanie.
Due to that, we got ourselves into trouble. A facilitator from another class came to us and warned us. That moment was super funny. Everyone was suddenly quiet.
And when he's gone, everyone burst into laughter and talked about the race.
Haha.
I'm enjoying this class even more.
Addition to that, Stanley wasn't present today.
So double the joy.
If you do not know who Stanley is, here's a poster about him.

Seriously, E37Q are mostly anti-Stanley.

17

2009-11-16T22:30:00.003+08:00

To Azhar, Aishah, My mum, Thomman, Nadiah, Liza, Liza's friend, E37Q, Nas, Wann, Samantha, Li Ming, Haziq, Kanan and Syeeqa(Kakak)..
(Based on the first to the last person who wishes)
Thanks for remembering and wishes.
I really had a great 17th Birthday.
Thanks people.
You're the best.
=)

This birthday cake was so unexpected. It is unique in a way too.
Haha.

The gifts from E37Q.

As you can see, I received a lot of chocolates today. Those on the right are the chocs that I usually buy in school. Haha. There was actually a box of ferrero rocher and dove chocolates which were already finished in class. So, these are the remainings. And for that big bag of Hot 'n' Spicy potato chips, that's from my classmate, Coreen. Thanks Coreen. Sorry I didn't open it in class to share. Haha.

Sean, I am so gonna remember you for life for this drawing.

Just 365 days left before I'm legal to buy cigarettes, watch M18 movies, buy liquor but most importantly, take bike driving license. Yeah!

Looks like my favorite Birthday turns out to be great. Thanks to you people.
17 is the number.
Favorite number.
Once again, thanks people for this day.
=)

2009-10-01T01:51:00.003+08:00

Heyya!
Ok, it's been a loooooooong time since I last update.
Here it goes.
Currently in the last week of holiday.
5 weeks of holiday and it didn't felt that long.
There was the fasting month, my 13th monthsary, RP futsal tournament and Hari Raya of course!

13 monthsary was during the fasting month.
We break fast at Pastamania at Bugis Junction.
Before that, we shopped at Peninsula.
I wanted to buy new clothes.
After breaking fast, continued shopping at Bugis Street.
Took the bus home after that.

After 1 month of fasting, I fully deserve this.
Hee.
Guess the economy is really healing..
Or
That my stock market has really bloomed this year.
Haha.
My Hari Raya money has just reached $400 from the normal $200plus.
And, it's still going.
Whoa!
What a Raya.
Haha.
Well, went out with family and some group of friends.
Hari Raya this year is great.
m
I'm loving it.

Selamat Hari Raya =)

And ya, before I forgot, the futsal tournament at RP.
It was during the fasting month.
Well, my team won.
We are Team Venom, named by our captain "Eagle".
Haha.
Only known to some.
Won some sports vouchers but who cares.
Where are the trophies??
Or recognition??
Anyway, got this picture from the school's online magazine.
Haha.

We are the champs, Team Venom.