I hope that my grace period is long enough to keep you away from here..
So, it's a Sunday today and it's Mothers' Day and it's 8 May.. 2 days from today, it could have been our 33rd month together.. So the past 2 days I've gone to town to play LAN with the people. But there's not the thing. Every single time I went back home from town, I will take 65 home. And every time, it just reminds me of the time I always fetched you from work at Vivo.. Every single day, if I could fetched you, I would fetched you from work straight after school. Damn, I miss those moments.. Though I was very tired from school, meeting you has always been the reason to why I'm always happy. That is why I have never complaint on being tired to fetch you although you always say not to fetch you if I'm tired. It was the only time I could see you everyday and I don't want to miss that chance. And every time, it'll be a long ride home and I really enjoyed your presence every time. Although we don't talk often during the bus rides, your presence was all I need to be happy. I really miss having you..
As each day passes, I see more and more of your tweets, I feel more and more insecure. I know I'm not yours but I just feel insecure, I don't know why. Maybe because I love you too much that's why.. Every time you tweet baobei, I feel very insecure, jealousy start to strikes, I feel sad, angry with myself.. You could have still be mine, I know it, we both know it.. But.. I just had to change at the most decisive moment of my life..
I miss you, Aishah.. I really do.. I want to tell you but I doubt you'll bother.. I want you back in my life.. No, I NEED YOU BACK IN MY LIFE. Honestly, my life is going from bad to worse without you.. I really need you. Everyday, I'll look at our pictures together and just cry myself to sleep.. I really miss US. You are the my FIRST TRUE LOVE and I don't wanna let that go.. You are my only love. I was foolish to let you go.. It is the biggest mistake and regret of my life.. You are the first and only girl who I've kissed and I still believe there is a reason for that.. You are the first and only girl whom I have done so many things together with.. You are the first and only girl whom I've experienced so many things with.. You are the first and only girl, that really love me and you are the first and only girl that I really truly honestly sincerely love..
What I wanna say is, I want you back.. I need you back.. I really, really, really, really, really, really, really need you badly. I want you back. I want it all back. I want us back. I want Aishamyzan back. I want our love back. I want to be together with you again. I want to be the one who make you smile and happy again. I don't want others to make you happy. I want me to make you happy. Yes, I'm selfish.. Because I really love you.. I want to be YOUR Myzan again.. I want to be yours again.. I want to be with you.. My heart aches for you.. I ache for you.. Everything about me aches for you to be back.. You are that missing piece in my life.. I swear, I'll treat you right. I swear I'll love you right. I swear you get what you deserved. I swear I'll be there for you. I swear I'll keep what I swear to you. I can't wait any longer. I need you back now.. I now know how it feels to be dying as each day passes by.. I'm dying on the inside. I need you.. I'm crying my heart out for you.
I LOVE YOU NORAISHAH BINTE OMAR ALKHATIB, I LOVE YOU.
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